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| - Marinah and I have a unique relationship because she was my midwife preceptor for the brief stint I apprenticed many years back, so it seemed fitting to have her be my midwife after she saw me pregnant with my firstborn. Actually everything seems perfectly natural around her, whatever my thoughts and decisions, she always made me feel whole, more than adequate, and completely in control of myself under her prenatal care. She is a powerful woman and very experienced and skilled.
I also appreciate that she asks alot of questions and wants to learn more about my gender identity as a birthing daddy. I am transgender and my gender crisis during pregnancy and postpartum was very overwhelming and although it was new for her, she always made me feel cared for and respected about this. She listened to my endless thoughts and feelings and offered thoughtful information about how to move forward, may times.
I think Marinah's most powerful skills are her abilities to love and forgive. My relationships with all four of my parents are pretty traumatic so to have a midwife who loves me how I want to be loved, and forgives seemingly everything, is just incredibly powerful and healing. In this day and age when the automatic gratification button can be added to just about everything, I feel like this innate power to love someone how they want to be loved, is kind of a forgotten art, and very necessary. Especially in the throws of labor when the gates of time become accordion pleats and death feels so close to birth (my perspective and experience of labor I know) but it was so relieving to be rooted to the ground by the love of my midwife at that time.
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